Christianity was my religious flag as a child, clearly I did not choose it but inherited it. Being very young, my parents took me to church, to Bible studies, and to share with other children on Sundays in what they called “Sunday School.” The first truth that I remember learning is that, basically, everything was sin. We were instructed on what cannot be done, but they never taught us what we could do. We couldn’t dance, drink, smoke, even watch TV. And so, we grew up the many children of the Sunday School, believing that what they taught us was the right thing to do.
At six I had my first spiritual experience, the one that woke me up. Read it on Horses at the Alley. Curiosity woke up with me that day and since then I started reading what I had on hand to understand, to know. The Bible became my base book for spirituality. Imagine a seven year old boy reading the pentateuch, the prophets and the poetic books, it was like reading comics about adventures, wars, genocides, loves, and magic a lot of magic. As an adult my readings were extended to the Kybalion, the Bhagavad Gita, the Quran, books of angels, demons, spirituality, Wicca, pantheons of various civilizations, readings of Egypt and its secrets, philosophy, I Ching, among many other books of spirituality . Some were beautiful, others a complete disappointment, incomplete and basic. All in search of the truth or whatever fueled my spiritual curiosity.
Back to the Bible, my favorite superheroes of the Comic were Daniel, Elijah and Marry the mother of Jesus. Daniel, the weirdest prophet of the entire Comic, he became the chief of the Chaldeans, the Chaldeans were sorcerers, therefore, if you have few intelligent neurons you can deduce that Daniel was instructed in all the occult, divinatory, astrology, reading and medicinal arts, and secret knowledge. Daniel is like the super sorcerer of the Biblical Comic, he found balance between good and evil, and history tells us that he never lost his faith, because he knew that the Father of the All was ALL, and everything else were lies and rules of social and political order. Elijah did the craziest and most magical things in all of story, and in the end he disappeared in a car of fire. And the mother of Jesus, Marry, just imagine the mother of a human being capable of doing very strange things since childhood, educated in Egypt, possibly welcomed by the wise men, it goes without saying that they were Chaldeans, sorcerers, instructed by the tradition of Daniel, that is why they read the stars to find Jesus. The Comic says that she “kept all these things in her heart”, silently watched, learned and judged the good from the bad. From her I learned to shut up and observe. The All is noise, but it is also silence.
Over the years and multiple readings, I began to notice loose ends, verses that seemed to affirm things other than those I learned in the church, dogma and tradition in many cases did not coincide with the Comic. Then, every time I attended Sunday School, my doubts grew and I became the questioning child that showed the poor preparation of teachers. One day, I came to Colossians 1: 16-17 that I quote next “Because in him all things were created, those that are in heaven and those that are on earth, visible and invisible; be thrones, be dominions, be principalities, be powers; Everything was created through him and for him. And he is before all things, and all things in him subsist. ” Boom! My head exploded. If everything means everything, then the good god they taught me also created evil, he is also evil; if everything means everything, then the god who is sitting on the throne of heaven is not in an unattainable place is everywhere, god is all, ALL. God is air, fire, water, earth, animals, humans, mountains, sea, stars, day, night, emotions, intelligence, ignorance, everything is contained in God, what can be seen and what is not. They never allowed me to ask again.
So, from the inexperienced perspective of a 13-year-old boy, I began to believe in a thermometer god. If I went to one extreme it was purely goodness, but if I went to the other extreme it was pure evil, it was still the All. Therefore, Lucifer was not the evil incarnate, but only a rebel who decided on a side, he was not and is not the evil end of the thermometer. He was one more creation, a basic one, there is no reason to be afraid of him. A thermometer has the zero degree that separates the cold from the heat, but in practice, what for some is cold for others is not and what for some is hot for others is not. All the weight of the guilt they had taught me, because of sin, that day I lost it, and I found balance, I am good and I am bad, I am light but I am also darkness as long as I am human I am a duality. And I never felt guilty about anything again. Then everything in the church began to seem wrong, they do not read, they are not instructed, they only follow guidelines. The guidelines of others, who were also wrong.
I do not claim to know the truth, it is just that the oral tradition did not coincide with the written one. Hosea 4:6 says “my people perish for lack of knowledge,” they don’t read, they don’t judge, they just follow guidelines. I was different, I had doubts, I wanted knowledge.
When all became The All for me I understood that the All was everywhere, so I began to respect the lives of others, animals, insects, plants and mainly respected and admired death. Death became for me a cause for celebration and not fear, death is an energetic transition, we never really die, we just transform. It is still the All. Everything in the material world is dual and remains the All.
Once I understood The All, everything changed in and out of me. Many years later, I delved into knowledge, concepts and definitions have changed, but the statement all is All is still standing that simple, that real.
But this is not all, the All is more fascinating and interesting than I could ever imagine. You will see, I will post a deeper understanding of the All later.
-The Unknown Blogger.
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